The Anomaly

I’m just different. Not necessarily better, but different. My perspective, my drive and even my thought process could be considered alien to the stereotypical college student. I’ve recently been seeing the world I live in as a darker place then I once did. A distortion or blurred image if you will, of what this world was meant to be. I see it as “A place that is always winter but never Christmas,” as C.S. Lewis would allude to in The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe.

We all have a sense of evil but to varying degrees. The nightly news shows us the murders, the rapes, the drug busts, the robberies and the corruption. Now and then we see global issues, the poverty, the hunger, the genocides etc. but they are all just that, things we only see on the news. These problems are much deeper than that. It’s easy for us to make a donation to a charity and say, “Well, I did my part.” What if everyone around me, including myself, is inherently evil? What if in the core of our being, we ourselves are a distortion of what we were meant to be? What if what we saw on the nightly news was just an escalation of evil that rests inside all of us?

Its not like I do not think there is incredible joy in this world, there is. There can be an incredible amount of joy and love in family and friends, in the workplace and in the beauty of the outdoors, music, art, as well as in success and hope. Good has always existed but is it currently in a state of overcast by evil?
I see so many of my fellow classmates reaching down in empty wells. Searching for the answer to the question, “What is the meaning of life?” I do not see heavy drinking, drug use and sexual promiscuity as “good times,” I see them as desperate attempt to gain a greater inner joy that will never come through these avenues. The next few blogs will be dedicated to uncovering the search to find significance in this world.